There are
persons whose lives I love being part of, whom I love dearly. Whom I’d run to
help if they just lifted a finger. These are the same persons I hardly ever keep in touch with, phone or write … and I ache at the thought of this mess, this mess that I create in me.
It is my shield, I think, my shield of protection. No contact, no getting hurt … I don’t handle rejection very well. It is a hurt that is too familiar and too raw.
It is my shield, I think, my shield of protection. No contact, no getting hurt … I don’t handle rejection very well. It is a hurt that is too familiar and too raw.
Trust fails
me. How to trust?
Oh, it is So much better now than it’s ever been, this trusting of mine, but it is a slow faltering road and on the way I fear I am loosing those who see no reason to be patient.
Please,
God, teach me to understand your manual on trust and grace all my loved ones
with your patience!
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Five minute Friday was born out of Lisa-Jo's desire to paint with words without worrying about staying inside the lines.
I can completely relate to you and I have built walls round to protect me. The pain of leaving those close friends in another country was immense and so I've felt it better to have a shield. If no-one gets too close I won't have to feel that ache of loss. I did a great job of building up my walls then realized we are meant for community and fellowship, love and companionship and I may be well protected, but also well isolated and lonely. Those amazing friends stay despite distance, remote contact or irregular contact too! Love this post, thank you.
SvaraRaderaThank you for your sweet comment on my blog. I've realized that to take away pain from our lives we would have to take out love. Hopefully we can both feel more love this week as we press forward with trust and faith.
SvaraRaderaOur words do connect together on this topic...opposite ends of the same struggle...
SvaraRaderaThank you for leaving your words on my post so I could come here and connect with yours!